I remember one night, a few days before I was to board a plane and uproot my life to one of the greatest cities in the world, my friends showed up at my door with a scarf, blindfolded me, and tossed me in the car. We began traveling for what felt like hours to a secret location. I tried to focus on the small details like the amount of left turns we took or how many red lights we stopped at to map out where we were going. Instead of trusting my friends, I ended up trying to figure out where we were headed. Little did I know that we would be ending at my surprise going away party.
Instead of trusting who I was with, I started to rely on what I knew and my own instincts. This same pattern of distrust repeated itself when I moved to New York City to pursue my dreams of becoming a bridal wear designer and attend one of the top design schools in the world and God suddenly told me that he was going to change the plans that I had laid out for myself in my career and education. I felt completely blindsided and started freaking out and asking questions. I was taken aback! My prayers became, “That’s not what we had in mind, God” and “I don’t have time to change my schedule.” I felt deceived and that I had been blindly leaning on to false hopes. I had the mentality that God was playing games and was out to get me. I know it sounds insane! How could a sovereign and merciful God be out to get one of his children? I became filled with fear in all aspects of my life. Afraid of going back to school and back to the city, afraid of disappointing my family if I backed out of pursuing fashion design. I was even fearful of hearing again from the Lord because I didn’t want him to tell me about my plans changing again!
I felt like my confidence had been kidnapped, blindfolded by questions, and fear was strangling and choking out my faith. During my summer back at home I had to dive into my bible to reassure myself that God had my life under control. It was in my alone time with God that I found my peace and trust in him again. I learned that in situations where we are suddenly consumed by fear or don’t know what we are going to face, we as children of the King must remind ourselves of God's Word, which reads:
“Be strong and courageous. Do not be afraid or terrified because of them, for the Lord your God goes with you; He will never leave you nor forsake you.” (Deuteronomy 31:6 NIV)
“ Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous. Do not be terrified; do not be discouraged, for the Lord your God will be with you wherever you go.” (Joshua 1:9 NIV)
As a result of fear, we often dwell in our comfort zones. I let the lie that is fear move in and make my mind its home. If we don’t trust in God’s plans, we will indefinitely miss out on the incredible journey He has mapped out over us. SPOILER ALERT: Though the journey may involve seasons of waiting and ups and downs guess what?
We. Have. The. Victory.
Like reading the ending of a book first, we know what’s to come, and the beauty is found in how the author wrote the events to lead to such a conclusion. That’s why we love the concept of ‘rags to riches’. It wouldn’t be great if it were ‘riches to riches.’
We love the idea of contrast.
I was once lost but now I am found.”
“I was blind but now I see.”
So instead of letting fear brainwash our minds with misleading plots to our bestselling novel, let's just sit back and watch how good can God make our story. I can just imagine Jesus sitting back and say to the enemy, “ PLOT TWIST: she has the victory!”
I, like many of you, am still figuring out what God wants to complete in my life. I don’t know if tomorrow I’ll want to quit fashion and pursue becoming a baker! Move to Thailand to preach the gospel or start an orphanage in South America. Maybe we are focusing too much on being blindfolded and not focusing onto who is blindfolding us, or where they are leading us. What if I told you that it's God who is placing his hands over our eyes and leading us to a lifelong surprise party that glorifies Him and His will over our lives? Would you let him lead you?
Hey LYBM lovers! My name is Paola. I am Dominican and I was raised in Florida but I currently live in my birth state, New York. I am a lover of fashion and dance. You can catch me dancing to any beat I hear or sketching fashion figures on napkins at coffee shops. These are my greatest passions after my love for the Lord. Besides coffee, a newfound love of mine is bubble tea and pot stickers! I am currently enrolled at The Fashion Institute of Technology studying Fashion Design. I love traveling, I’ve traveled to many countries in Europe for vacation but I want to add some more stamps on my passport while preaching the gospel and leaving my beauty mark all around the world!